Tuesday, February 24, 2004 ugh that's fucking bullshit...how come jeff is able to tell alvin and joey and crap his problems, but he can never be open about them with me? wtf is that yannoh? i mean jeeze...you expect me to be open with you all the time, and i can't get the same thing back from you? what kind of relationship is that! ugh...  Comment! (0) | Recommend! Saturday, February 21, 2004 Saturday, February 21, 2004 well my winter break has been interesting. going out and all hehe. =) Sunday: went to the little flea market in milpitas then got some movies at the Milpitas Library. after that just went home and watched them. Monday: went to Valley Fair Mall and just looked around. i have never wanted shoes so badly in my life. haha. but i wasn't aloud to buy anything cuz my stepmom knew i would just blow all my money on useless crap...blahz. oh well. maybe another time hopefully! Nordstrom's had some cute ass sandals up in there! crazyness! hehehe =P Tuesday: well i decided to stay home since i was feeling hella sick with the flu. so jeff came over! hehe. i was so happy that he did. it was nice seeing him. sadly, i got him sick. ha! i told you so! kissing makes you sick! lmao. oh well...sorry!!! Wednesday: took the lightrail then the train to Zha Zha's house. cuz i was gonna sleep over. around lunch time we went to The Cheesecake Factory. man that place is rockin! it is so0o fucking nice there! haha. after that we just walked around Downtown Palo Alto going into stores and buying cute stuff. i even went to The Bead Shop and made jeff a cute bracelet. haha. then we went back to her house and sat on the couch for the rest of the night watching movies and shows. Thursday: we went to IKEA. it was my first time there! hehe. that place is awesome! i bought some stuff. man cheap too! hehe. it's so0o fucking great. i love it! i hope i get to go there again soon! =D hehe. after that Zha Zha's dad dropped me off at home and i decided to rearrange my room. i fucked up my back doing that though...ehh oh well. stupid me! Friday*today*: went to the movies with Jay, Alvin, Eman, Zha, and Jeff. we watched Eurotrip. that movie is alright...could've been better. i didn't find it that funny...whatever. hehe. then like jeff and i kinda had an arguement...but luckily we made up :whew: hehe. which is good! so yeah...he's still apologizing... -_-;;; haha aiyah! oh well...hehe. as long as we're okay with each other now and not mad anymore. well that has been my winter break week so far! blahz..school is almost here...i am seriously not looking forward to it...oh well hehe. bye bye you guys! :muahz: Comment! (0) | Recommend! Sunday, February 15, 2004 hey you guys! hehe. anyways. yesterday was Valentine's Day. it was pretty awesome for me! =) got to spend the day with jeff. hehe. he came over and then i got ready. we then went to IHOP, where i took my sweet time to eat. 2 hours...=P then we left IHOP and went to the movies. we decided to watch 50 First Dates. which was an awesome movie. i love romantic comedies. haha. i'm so jealous of Lucy! Henry was so sweet to her...=( why can't jeff be like that! haha just kidding. then his uncle gave me a ride home. on the way home jeff and i were talking about cell phones. and i asked him if he ever used his organizer. and then i told him that i did, to put down my thoughts. and then he asked "like what" and i said "like my insecurities..." and when i said that i was kinda embarassed, so i looked out the window. then all of a sudden he grabs my hand and squeezed it as like a reassurance. then right when that happen You by Ryan Duarte comes on the radio. and i thought "wow...this is like the perfect moment right here" cuz a few months ago jeff told me that, that song reminded him of me. so yeah...it was just a perfect moment! AHHH! lol well that was my Valentine's Day. now i have no school for a week! yay!!! awesomeness. hehe bye bye you guys! :muahz: Comment! (0) | Recommend! Wednesday, February 11, 2004 well i should be gettin ready for school right now, but ehhh fuck it. haha. i'll just leave late and get there late. i dont care anymore...:shrug:
well anyways! yesterday i hung out with nicole, which was pretty cool. =) one on one time with her. brings us closer, which is good. cuz i do wanna get close to everyone in that group. just so that i will be a tighter and stronger bond. =)
alvin seems to be in a better mood. i'm glad about that. his shit with jay is over and done with. which is a plus! =) no more sad alvin. hehe
sometimes i feel completely uncomfortable when people bad talk about april. iono...i guess it's cuz the fact that she was never really mean to me when it came face to face...so yah. i mean i still question about her and jeff. if they ever did anything together. but whatever...:sigh: iono...if they did then they did...it's on their fucking guilty conscience. not mine! but i dont want to end up wasting my time on him...wasting the feelings in my heart. cuz i know it's not worth it. oh well. ughness...
well, i'll cut it here. gotta take a shower. bye you guys and take care for me! Comment! (0) | Recommend! Saturday, February 7, 2004 morning everyone! hehe.
you know what? i like nutang. i'm so glad that none of my friends know about me being here cuz it gives me a place to vent out my private thoughts without them knowing. it's like my little 'secret' haha. but anyways!
alright something has been itching at me for awhile now....so many people are going to me and telling me their problems. which is cool cuz i'll always listen and give out the best advice i can, but like trixi told me once...why complain about it when you can solve your problem yourself. right?
for example, for a long time 'they' have been telling me how their life is crap and that it sucks. i'm sorry that they see their life that way, but at least try to look at it in a positive way. don't think about all the bad things in life, but think about all the goods things in life that you have. don't think about how you're not good enough to them, think about how you're greater than enough to other people. if you feel strongly about the way you feel towards people then tell them how you feel so you can live a happier and solved life. don't tell me about it. tell them
then there's the ones that go to me and tell me how much they miss someone. that's cute and all, but i don't want to hear it all the damn time. you know what i mean? i mean they tell me that they miss them and how they haven't seen that special person for such a long time. don't think of it that way...think of it as...each passing day that you go on in your life without that special person, brings you closer to the next day you will see them.
well i vented out enough today. bye bye and take care everyone! have a good weekend!
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